Different

For the past three days I have played with paint, allowing the mood to strike. What hit today is final. What inspired this is the simple fact that if your belief's differ from the "norm" in our society, you are hushed, or you do not talk about it, or you are considered unequal. No matter what the analogy that pops up to illustrate this- the end effect is your different can be mute.
This is one of my surreal compilations- she has no mouth because she is mute.

 

She's still drying. 

Monday morning thoughts and knots

Eeeeet'sa Monday! ( I say it with my great aunts' Sicilian accent)
Good morning! This weekend was the absolutely beautiful Wolf Moon! Bella Luna!!!! And Ahhhh was she gorgeous! Did you get a chance to see her? Did ya howl at the moon?We had rain rain rain all weekend- but the clouds parted long enough to get to see her in her full glory, tie a ribbon around her and draw down the peace and power- she was a beauty!
Wonderful!
This early early morning, as hubby went to work, I got one last peak at her before the sunrise took away the glory- the setting moon... brought a smile first thing and great start to the morning!

So! The rain kept us from working in the yard much but oh boy did we knock out some serious time organizing the garage an finally getting some shelves up, a couple of my paintings hanging and some awesome work space!! Love it!!!!! felt wonderful! Was an awesome and productive weekend- along with several rounds of darts under the porch- my son beat our butts! But we all had a blast! Great family time!
I got all our feathered friends supplied with wild bird seed, and the hummingbird feeder is  hanging! - the Mr. especially liked that. Can't let them go without as the months will soon be turning colder!
Had a visit Saturday lunchtime from a Redish colored Hawk- in our yard! My son and I saw him, will have to look up that meaning this am. And Saturday night as we enjoyed our moon, a barn owl graced my hubby and I 's presence! Was truly awesome!
Yay!
Today is all house hold catch up - the weekend does make a mess- but moods are high and smiles are abundant!
bright blessings! 

Wednesday Walk in the Tiptoe time

This morning- 6:30 am we discovered a cloud cover that caused the sunrise to look bizarre! Just a bright red line on the horizon. I tried to take a pic of it- but my camera sucks- and I didn't wait for he tripod to steady it- still blurry you can get the idea of the red! the huge amount of grey is nothing but clouds that are still there! needless to say- it makes for a day that's hard to wake up!

Despite the grey! I have caught up on the house and had helpers! The kitties are their usual hyper when weather changes- mine get super weirdo - and they decided mom changing the sheets was way too fun to ignore! It's playtime!!!!!!
Needless to say I rewashed the sheet- LOL -but we had a ton of fun! So what I have noticed today was a need for  distant relationships- to spend time with those not always super close. Not worried about hubby or kids- they're fine- but multiple calls and texts and chat messages  from cousins, helping out with family tree  advice with distant cousin & editing a bit on my own book for one side of the family tree,  looking up herbal remedies for Fibromyalgia with another, and then suddenly my kitties crave attention- so attention I give! Brought  huge smile to my face and completed a day that oddly felt successful -yet I had nothing more accomplished on my to do list than when I started! LOL I guess some days are just like that.

 

what I have noticed today--- tiptoeing tuesday 1/22

Hi !!!!!! Yesterday - Monday -was bizarre!!!! Usually Mondays are cursed with no energy, I sleep in late and stay up late all weekend then wake up Monday just wanting to go back to bed! Ugh! But not this Monday!- was the total opposite! Awesome day! Maybe it was just the extra energy from such a beautiful day- the sun was out it was about 60 degrees- just gorgeous! I fed off that vibe all morning! I rocked the shoveling and soil turning in the yard! Yay!!
Added a few rocks to the collection. Outdoor as I find it altar- as I dig, I keep gathering the rocks that catch my eye and want attention- they are warming in the sunshine- turning out to me an outdoor special area-  here's what it looks like this am.

 Got loads of laundry done, did my catch up housework to gain control back of the house after the usual weekend mess,  made some killer baked Tilapia, fresh steamed carrots, and pilaf  for dinner last night! Super yummmmmmmm! Was awesome!  Last, but not least, got an email from my sister who reminded me of the jupiter/moon conjunction last night and all four of us went out to a beautiful eve and enjoyed the moon and the planet! Worked out great!

Beautiful end to the night! Loved it!

Today I am waxed out!  But I have finally caught up on many of my emails! Enjoying some catch up on Pink's latest album and video's from my fav. youtube channels.
... feels like a Monday. I did some kind of day reversal in energy I think! I guess that happens! Guess I best just drink my extra water and go with the flow- Yay! It's a "Monday-Tuesday" to tiptoe through!

A breath- taken in...

a breath
completed
is the essence of life
but
not in  humanity's definition.
for a breathe taken in
is new, fresh, clean and undefiled
a fresh start, a hope.
Every exhale completes a cycle,
outward forcing rush of defiled,
complicated, used up dusty old.
out with the old,
in with the new.
life as it should be,
on a daily, hourly, minute by minute basis
for living natural life.
a continual recycling circle-
a resurgence of renewal.
Life.
A lesson humanity often forgets,
never forgives
and is jealous of
at all cost.
 - Janey,  Jan 2013

What I noticed Today...Tip Toe Friday

I am trying to learn to write everyday. ha! That would require consistency, and well, we shall see how that goes! LOL I rename one goal on my list to Write in journal daily. If I can actually do that until Ostara- I have certainly achieved a huge goal! :D

Yesterday, I meant to write. Yesterday (Thursday) was an emotional day and I ended up getting upset over a phone call with my mom, then ranting over it, mulling and muddling over it, then finally calling her and talking it out, and having a good night after all. So an emotional, but "determined to heal it" kind of day. Really. :D One thing I did do, however, was continue to knock out a section of weeds and took the shovel and outlined where I want the garden to grow. Just the outline. but it's a start- I had to be able to see something, my visualizations just were not in the groove without a start. LOL Good work out - shoveling is not easy! LOL and whew....

Today (Friday) I started off catching up with Tiptoe Chick (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PnFrXJ-AoaU)  and she had posted a wonderful short synopsis about daily candle rituals and I loved it! I also loved her Friday explanation- a get ready for fun day- so I lit a candle and took her advice! Yay!! I declared it a pamper morning- which helped soooo much, because I was sore from shoveling yesterday! Ouch! And thankful for it- 'cause the day has been gorgeous ever since! Amongst the many things of regular errands I trimmed my hair. And then got a surprise by my son, who asked me to trim his hair and advice on taming his young beard. (Which he is determined to grow!) So, I indulged, and we joked and had fun! And I trimmed over 3" off! ;) Yay! He was happy- I was happy! Sweeet!

I headed out after finishing school-to my spot in the afternoon, the yard, to enjoy some outside for a while. Instead of grabbing the shovel, I sat on one of the many rocks lined up from the previous owner and stared at the mess I need to clean up and fix-seeing my outline helped though and I started envisioning where this might be going! It was peaceful and nice end to the day! I have a long way to go with this as you can see by the picture-  The hummingbirds said hello, and today the doves did as well! yay! Happy Friday! BB

owl and cat playing

http://www.wimp.com/catowl/

I had to share this, thought it was amazing!

My Morning... What I noticed today

Since I moved to this new house I have the pleasure of being accepted by the 2 hummingbirds who live in the two trees in my yard and the one large tree in the neighbors. A little grey female and her hubby -a beautiful green, grey,& red male. He doesn't get close to me, but when I prune the lemon tree out front or check it's progress the female always pays a visit. She even allows my sons to get close- my son took these pictures- shows her right above my head.
For the first time in my life I have experienced not just getting to see hummingbirds, but I have experienced their chatter. I am learning to understand their sounds, for normal day to day. The song, the clicks, the warnings, the chatter. they are very talkative creatures!
But today was different. It just happened. I am not sure what happened exactly but in the animal world, I actually got to be privy for a moment, and instinct and intuition screams at me inside to be glad I was! So I will not question, I obeyed and everyone seems to be happy I did.

 So here's what happened:I was out by the furthest part of my front yard- I have just begun to start knocking weeds and trying to think about where I want a garden to start:

I heard my hummingbirds chatter. The usual talk. I walked to the furthest left (northern) corner and snapped a picture of my agave- been having fun with sun play lately :

This is when I first heard the sound. Sharp - tone. I am not musical so I cannot place a key note to it; however, it sounded a lot like the beep you get from a house fire alarm when the battery is getting low??? There quick but gone. I thought- huh, weird. I turned to take another picture of the the rock wall the previous owner left me with

 Here at this picture I looked up because the sound came again. I glanced into my fruitless mulberry and say the male flying. He made the sound again- and I realized it actually came from him- but I was stunned to see him do it as to make the sound he actually is thrown backwards in flight in order to make it. He darted over my head. I thought- something's wrong! I briskly walked up to the house- and he made the noise a third time as I reached the porch the whole area went dead silent- not a bird, not a dog- it was freaky quiet- as if the whole world was listening- I listened- by my front door- too caught up in this weird to move-

quiet .....quiet.......not even a car moved..... there! That's it! I could hear a man yelling! Screaming profanities and it sounded from behind my house in the alley... I could hear his voice as he moved!  the warning sounded again, and this time the neighbors dogs went insane berzerkkers! Explosion of barks - fierce barks! then the back alley neighbor's dog went crazy and the man kept moving... I listened -you could hear him as he went for the dogs now took over the alerts! and I could hear the whole neighborhood- countless dog voices raising up in communication- After I knew he'd moved on down the road beyond the corner- and the neighbors dogs settled down a bit,  indicating safe- I went inside to find my cats at the back bedroom window -alert and hair raised, intent on watching down the alley.
Like I said- I don't know what happened exactly, but I am sooo happy I listened. So happy. Gut instincts are happy anyway.

I realize I could just be paranoid. The town's high school's news last week with the student shooter went international, and everyone in the town is still on edge. But this seemed significant in another way. So I am noting it, even if I do not completely understand it.

ps. now that I am typing this to share- my "helpers"........................." are helping...

New Year New Me

So What on earth am I talking about? Well, I had previously posted that it was time to "Do Over" back in November- feeling a definite and certain need for change in a positive direction.
 Then, as if in the great circle of things known as life, one of my beautiful and wonderful teachers whom I follow posted a New Year Challenge that spoke directly to me and fit so perfectly into what I was already feeling and experiencing that I could not ignore it any longer!
Dee, (aka TipToeChick on YouTube) is inspiring and very real. She has been a wonderful teacher and what I love about her most is her blatant honesty. She inspires me to be who I am. I never stop learning from her.
Her post: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pP8_fPob8AY&feature=player_embedded
Absolutely has motivated me to move, and do! Yay!!!!!!!
Excited!!!!!!! :D

My Goals before Ostara (March 21st)

My Goals to reach before Ostara (March 21) are:

1. To eat real foods, and lose weight.

2. To walk 30 minutes a day. No less.

3. To start a garden.

Love this! I can do this.  I can do this! Yay! :)

My Positive 3 Affirmations for 2013

My 3 positive affirmations

A New Year A New Me. Tip Toe has set out a challenge for the new year and I love it! So positive and I am ready. I am 2 weeks late in the start, but I really do not think that matters. What matters IS the start!

To write the 3 things that I know are real about myself:

1. I'm a very caring person. 

2. I'm a good mother and wife.

3. I'm a good teacher.

(It's certainly not as easy as it sounds! To write 3 good things about yourself, and allow none of the instant self doubts that pop up in your mind allow you to erase them....LOL... wow. There it is.) Whew!

Tuesday Tip toe-ing- journal- what I noticed this am

Things I have noticed today. :)
 If I tip toe outside in the early mornings right now, I about freeze my beeeeeehind off. Thermometer on back porch says 35f. Not as cold as when I lived in the mountains, but cold enough for me to say brrrr. But! Standing in the sun is delicious, and wonderful! Warmed my fingers right up- and smelled awesome fresh air! Crisp! But awesome all the same....

 Then I noticed the birds- mostly the little barn sparrows around here- but they were darting and talking up a storm. :D Yay!

Then I played with my camera- and had fun with the sun and the danglies on my front porch:

Then I walked to my side porch and noticed an old painting that never got hung up during the move. Alone and forgotten it said- so I decided it needed some sun too- if only for a bit:
Yay it said!

I won't leave it out, but I definitely need to find a spot for it now-
More painting this year! 2013 is my art year! Have fun!

while you are playin

it's a selfish thing

to think about you and me

do i dream

or is it just make believe

to think of all we've seen

and been

where have we been

through space and time

descending the depth
 canyons deep

trudging through

 it's just me and you

in muck and mire

 we will aspire

 and run away

 climb the hills and dales

mountain side

 shocking wide

race ya to the top
climbing every rock
as if it's a pebble

miles race through
 lakes, shores- just flying though

just me and you

it's a selfish thing

that i dream of you

nothing else is true

just me and you
by janey  1/11/13 while johnny played the guitar

Learning as I go... Homemade Body Lotion.

So, I could make a long story out of the why's and when's,  but the short of it is I had a bad reaction to some medicine this last year, and since then I have been researching natural alternatives, a greener lifestyle, making homemade household cleaning items, using less store bought brands, and saving a significant amount of money in the process!
I am still very new to this, and quite frankly I have to buy small until I learn how and get a stock built up. Money matters dictate these things. But today, I ventured my own homemade lotion. And ohhhhh, I am so happy with the result! Winter weather dries out my skin so bad I have to use something. Especially on my hands, and frankly- the more I learn about the chemicals in some of the products I used to buy the more I shy away from ever wasting the money again!
It is amazing the amount of websites and blogs that can be found on DIY home products and beauty products. I have seen so many I can't keep track anymore. What I have discovered is that some ingredients are common- through out, and some recipies, although typed in different fonts across the web and shown in many colors, are exactly the same. So, I started purchasing common supplies- sweet almond oil, grapeseed oil, coconut oil, shea butter, castile oil soaps, etc etc.  And today I ventured to make my own lotion (since I am now officially out of my Aveeno lotion).  If any of you have ever wondered, it is super easy to make- and sooo nice! I will not pretend to claim I came up with the how to's on my own. No No. But I will happily share where I found it! All natural, and ohhhhh so good on the skin!
Here's where I found it:   http://mymerrymessylife.com/2012/07/homemade-organic-lotion-a-recipe-free-printable.html
And here is what I made looks like- fluffy, smells awesome, and took away the alligator dry. Yay!

So, one of many baby steps in learning how to go green. I'd love to say 'accidentally green', but that's taken and an awesome title!- so I will leave it with "Janey's Natural adventures" and go from there...LOL :D