I'll win

This time’s the last time

Won’t try again

Gonna make it work

Gonna win

May not have much

 as far as the world is concerned

may not have all the things that make

you successful in the eyes of society

But I have this one

I have this try

 And I have it all

I have it all

As long as I give it a try-

 like it’s the last try I’ll ever get

 Or ever take

 Or ever willing to make a sacrifice for

The last time

This time’s the last time

And I got this

Gonna win

Gonna make it

Gonna give till the giving hurts

                and I’ll still love

 I’ll still live

I’ll win because I tried

Like it’s the last try I’ll ever get.

- Janey, Oct 2011

swing

like a pendulum
swinging to and fro-
So life's joys swing
they come and go.
surround yourself
with love and grace
 smile in the times
when there seems no trace
and all will come back
in it's due time
ring in the hour
let the bells chime
embrace the thoughts
to carry you through
loose nothing of yourself
and all good within you
surround yourself
with goddess and grace
allow nothing of despair
to take it's place
and slowly the times
will swing back into place
learn from the tides
allow love to embrace.
 - Janey Oct. 2011

yes

respect
that is all anyone ever truly wants
acknowledgement of a their existence
recognition for their being
acceptance of the person they are
true respect, with out judgment
the greatest gift you can give someone-
love for who they are

when

When clouds of doubt and shadows appear

when uncertainty breaks way to fear

when lightening strikes the hearts at hand

when all you can do is feebly stand

open

open

open

open the circle and look to the north.

draw the light 

a powerful force

open the circle and look to the east

draw the fire 

warmth for the cold to cease

open the circle  and look to the south

southerly winds to blow

refreshing the spirit with all you know

open

open the circle and look to the west

to the waters so deep and blue

cleansing the doubts and shadows you knew

to the NORTH ! 

Rise free spirit!

Rise anew! 

sing, dance, refreshed and renewed.

For all is right 

and all is true.

you are in control 

of all you do. 

stand whole.

stand strong.

stand straight. 

stand for you.

close and thank. 

close and calm.

come again. 

thank you. 

now stand. 

you are you. 

look to the day bright and new.

Sept. 2011 - Janey

I remember a place

trees would speak
they would whisper and creek
and let us know who was there
their limbs stretched high in the air
i'd play with the needles
of those sequoia pines
thread them together to make
needle dolls who'd dance and shake
or chains for necklaces & wreaths in my hair
threading in wildflowers from the meadow's chair
I'd sit for hours on the fine log
and listen to the conversation of the trickle creek frog
Then the sun would dip lower nearly touch the evening time
and that's when the cries would start in the distance chime
Cries are  undescribeable by the mountain lion's call
They echo a hunt and warning that should be headed by all.
Then my needles I would gather as fast as I could
for that cry was a warning I knew never to ignore or brood
Mom would be waiting, and with needles and sticks
she'd kindle the fire and start it up quick.
And the trees would start to whisper and groan
changing tempurature and currents brought on by the evening storm
and we'd all stand by the fire- so toasty and warm
and listen to the trees talk,  living in the fireside calm.

the god particle

slingshot through the heavens
speeds barely unknown
moving, spinning, hurling-
a crescendo unfurling!
slingshot round the earth,
viewing a new direction
moving beyond what I've seen
 what I've done
through space and beyond
adrift in my own continuum...
there is no end to where I'll go
no existance I have ever known
a consistant void- I drift beyond
worlds unfurl and worlds become-
slingshot through the heavens
all I see
I have known
I drift apart,  sail, and fall
until I become nothing-
or I exist within all...

- Janey 6/2011

Eddie

For some who have come
they cannot pass the door
 they spy at the salts and lavendar-
or the broom as it sweeps the floor.
The candles as they glow
 my table that spread a charm
speaks a different message to them
as if unfamiliar things will do harm.
-but they cannot pass the door.

But to others who come in as friends-
it's a home away from home
no more need to search and worry
no more need to stray or roam.
They find slow and easy comfort
solace and peace and rest-
no judging hearts- no drama here
Just smiles and acceptance, at best.

And as if in quiet example,
we found a visitor today-
he came to us in answered call
in a specific, yet casual way.
His look is a simple joy
a purr and and a hug he'd let
he came to our door and simply said,
"Are you familiar with me yet?"

- Janey 6/2011

Oh to hear the stones!

My favorite places I recall
While camping when I was small
made no sense to those who'd grown tall
they could no longer hear their call.
It's the large granite stones I'd seek.
Down the hill by the creek,
I'd feel most timid and meek
But I'd run for the chance to lay down my cheek-
Sun drowned warmth would spread
 and dissolve all the weary dread
as I gently lay down and quiet my head.
I'd listen to the granite mounds
empowered by the strength and sound
energy given - it abounds!
strength of the ages all around.
- Janey 6/2011

Beliefs

Beliefs.

I declare a respect. I declare honor.

I declare sight, vision, hope, and promise.

I do not declare a name for my beliefs.
No religion.

It just is.

It is within. It is with out.

It is a force without name.

It is a force with respect to both genders. 
It is male, and it is female.

It is balance, harmony, structure.

It is both positive and negative.

It is both light and dark.

It is within everything.

It is energy.  It is power.

-janey June 2011

thoughts

Live.

Live fully.

Love.

Love first, love fully.

Love when you know nothing else to do.

Love first, love last, and love when no one else can.

Laugh.

Genuinely laugh.

Laugh until your tummy hurts and tears spring to your eyes.

Laugh With- never At.

With respect- never judgment.

And

Always, always –

Learn.

There is always more to know. 

-Janey, June 2011

quotes to remember

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
-Lao-Tze


"We do not see things as they are. We see them as we are."
(I have no idea who said this...but they were right.)

 
If you are going down a road and don't like what's in front of you and look 
behind you and don't like what you see, get off the road. Create a new path! 
Maya Angelou

I never get lost! I just investigate alternative destinations!- unknown

just a sec

earth's rise and fall
a beat for us all
we cannot hear any longer

before we are born
technical waves do adorn
and change the face of what we are

in the womb we are hindered
instincts are surrendered
we are born unable to hear

before we become
it's altered- it's done
 a fact of modern society

ancient man came to be
they could smell, taste, and see
they could hear the earth's heart beat

we consider ourselves better
far superior in matters
while we ignore the house we live in

we can't see we can't hear
it's all very clear
the very things we love has changed us.

We live unaware
when we know we should care
but who has time to think or change

Schedules abound
 and turn us around
 until we are retarded in form

If only we'd stop
if only we'd stop
and say - just a sec- let's listen...

listen hard listen long
home is where you belong
don't shit on the ground you lay down on.

Stop for minute
silence- you're in it
-and say, "just a sec"- and listen.

6/2011- janey

breathe

Keep the wind in the willows,
keep the breeze in your hair,
enjoy the sunshine's warmth
know that it is there.

thank your mother
even if you're mad
just say thank you
 and allow her to feel glad.

tell your father,
something of kind
donot let the emotions
leave you both blind

then breathe.
tell your children you love
beyond all
that can ever be loved.

simply
honestly.
breathe
enjoy the breeze.

to wait for a better time
to go to bed with regret
to waste another moment
living with an ounce of dread

is wasting away the gift you have.
breathe.
enjoy the air. say heartfelt emotion
do what you dream

because in one instant
in one breath- in one sigh
it can all go away
like the blink of an eye

do not stop living
do not live life encumbered
breathe and smile
love before slumber. - June 2011- Janey

I wish I'd had my camera

This morning while driving my husband to work, a 20 minute commute in the middle of fields of nothing, I just happened to glance to my left, out the window just barely above the hill was a meteor, for just a split second I saw it's black shape, fire on it's nose and a tail of fire behind, then flash!!!!! It exploded right over the hill and flayed everywhere. I have never in my life seen one so close I could see the shape of it. Amazing! Wish I could have caught that to share- but fact is it happened so split second fast there would be no way to capture it purposely. I was lucky enough to have caught it with my eye. Amazing though!

Fog

So finally we are getting some beautiful wintry weather by means of fog, lots and lots of fog. LOL My hair contains the wintry frizz I remember so well as a kid, living in Fresno, CA. granted we are further south in the valley now, but the fog and the moisture is the same. I love the quieting effect it has, fog rolls in and all goes still. Sooooooooo nice!